Living with 6 other people is driving me mad.
I must say my family has been really good to me so far, accomodating as well. But, suffice to say, living in a 5 and half with ONE other person to this .. is a little hair raising. I need Debbie time.
I am anxious, impatient and my mind is set into over drive. I feel like I am about to snap. The only cure is to write, easier said then done when you have a child saying’ auntie debbie.. what are you doing’ every 5 minutes.
Also, I need time by myself. Thankfully, yesterday I found a beach and marsh. Yes, a beach. With sand! Tomorrow I will go there in the afternoon for Debbie time 
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Random Thought.
Ever look for an escape in something you KNOW – realistically – is a bad Idea. But you delude yourself into thinking this is what you want. Bad timing infests your plan and wants and desires.
Yet, nothing will rain on your parade. Why? Because you are delusional.
The rational brain sees other people actions and words for exactly what they are … however, you begin to find excuses. Your mind has the capability of concocting all sorts of fantasies in order for you to feel like you haven’t failed or lost your pride.
It’s only when you have gotten bored or found another game that you finally close the book on said fantasy.
Maybe this is less unusual than I suspect but I am led to believe it takes a very ‘special’ brain to operate with such fervour. How many people rationally know what they are doing is hopeless yet pursue to the bitter end.
Maybe I can blame my mother for always believing in me no matter what I wanted to do?
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Speaking of my mother.
Let’s note that my family has gotten strike ONE against them this weekend regarding her and well some stuff.
That will be fixed once I complain to my aunts about it.
Come to think of it.. it was that event with regareds to my mom that got me into a tizzy. If I explained I Would sound greedy but it’s really about the principle of things ..
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Spadina.
A conversation went from "where’s Richmond", "I work in movies", "looking for extras", "Extras make $450 per sccene which lasts about 3 hours", "I’m from Florida", "actually in is porn but it really is just extra work.. like before the sex starts"
Meaghanne has a latino ass, I have big boobs (though not sure how this guy thought B cup size was big) and we were offered to be ‘extras’ in porn.
That guy was quite possibly the worst casting agent ever.. that night I looked like a day old prostitute who worked too hard the night before. ouash.
oh.. I also loved when he asked "Well, girls, do you know why they want me to act in porn?"
hmm.. lemme guess a) there is NO acting is porn.. retard. b) you have good stamina and a big cock. Congrats. Move along.
Nice to know random stuff like that can happen in Toronto.. cause that is DEF a montreal story.
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Today marks the first day that I really miss Montreal, home and my montreal friends.
Had to happen eventually.
I am surprised it took this long actually.
*sigh*
mm Off I go to an interview.. because I am a PHENOMENAL candidate who is still unemployed? indeed.
